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Recently been doing things not in accordingly to what i like or who i am. To be honest, there are a few happenings which i myself don't like to involved in but i went and done it -.-

love, friendship, family, household, musics, etc etc..

I've finally have myself clear on who's the one i supposed to fall in love with and to live side by side with. But useless i supposed-_- because that was indeed a terrible past tense. Recently I've been praying hard to meet her; yesterday we met each other at Parkson MBO~ OMG...... i was playing arcade and she just standing at my side back and watching me. But the timid me, imagine, i didn't even do anything to go talk to her or to walk up front......i just greeted her, nodded, and walked away.

Sometimes i really hate love......the more you ask, that the stuffs you won't be getting; the more you don't want it to be happened, the more they'll be coming! aiks......it's useless to just asking for what you want but did not pursue further or to have the initiative to do it! I really yearned to get back with her......i guessed what i can do now is just to wait?? hahaih.........

Been composing songs for competition recently. Got much comments, dad says "your songs nice what, have confidence!" edmond says "many of times, you don't compose songs to get prizes but you have to compose songs for people to listen..." mom says "i dunno music la (in a very Chinese assent)" anne mom says "many people likes your song!just that every of time you don't practice much!that's why your songs enters only finals but wont get prize..." feng er says "ur songs ok ar...my friends they said they like your song very much......"

Those are some of the comments I'm taking note of. Life's been miserable whenever I'm starting to compose songs. I mean I'm the kinda guy which will be very concentrating whenever I'm doing things which I'm really interested in. So, music life will caused me an injured bladder, a be-thinned body, and lastly swaying in my study lives. hahahaha.....I've been asking myself, the moment i came into MMU, my aim is to get Dean's list but till now i got nothing but a 3pointer only hahaha......sry dad~

hmmm...been kept asking myself about this question over and over again: what is the reason for me to create melodies and songs? Is it for the purpose of competition? or should it only be my personal interest? every time I'm gonna start my session, I'll think of how people will feel about my song, how people will judge it, etc etc. So it means that my songs will be composed and based in accordance to what other peoples' views and opinions! unlike Darren Chua, i really respect his song composing abilities and feels! Always the way of his own style, the swift and the sift of his own wish! i should have asked him about his ways of composing! haha....

I used to compose songs life how he does! HMMMM......i should change the way of my style of composing from now on instead! to be honest, Im gonna change my standard of careness of how people will think of my songs from now on as well!! hehe~ haha~ friends do wish me best of luck!

erm, you all can get the demo recordings from me if you wanted to have a glance! I accept comments from you all :D

kla, its raining now, i gotta get moving to get prepared for assignments!
haha...bye~